Wow. I messed up on my Resolutions. ALREADY!

It is the last day of January.  I made some resolutions, of course, like most everyone does to begin a new year.  Guess what?  I failed.  I failed miserably at ALL. BUT. ONE.  How could I let this happen?  In a month where I was certain no excuse was good enough? How? I don't know.  I say that A LOT.

I DO KNOW.  I was not committed.  I wasn't ready to get rid of some old habits.

Here is the one I succeeded at.  Working overtime.  WHY did I succeed at this one?  TWO REASONS.  I needed money, and I needed it quickly.  So much easier to run into work, make time and a half. SO MUCH EASIER to do that than to work on my home business.  The other reason is simple.  I HAVE TO.  I have to work extra hours to bring myself back to full-time status.   I HAVE TO.  THERE IS THE ISSUE.  I don't HAVE TO do the others, I NEED TO, but I don't HAVE to.

Here are a few small triumphs ~ I had a goal of helping 5 NEW people get healthy.  I made it to 3.
Swimming ~ I did swim every single week but one.  Not too bad.
Weight ~ 12 pounds gone, not 15.  Again, not too bad.

Now for the not so good.

Cycling ~ TOTAL FAIL.  I rode about 2 miles, not anything even remotely close to my plan. No spin classes, no trainer {until last Sunday}.  FAIL.
Walking/hiking ~ 1/2 of the miles I promised myself & my dog.  LAME.
Scripture reading ~ oh, about 1/3 of the time I read my scriptures.  OH GREAT.
Books ~ I did complete two books ~ but they were AUDIO books.  THAT COUNTS?  Why is there a question mark?  I have NO CLUE.

Argh.  Look at what I just did.  I made myself feel like a failure.  INSTEAD, I should celebrate the good.  WHY DO I ALWAYS look at where I messed up? 

Now, the old me would be bashing myself.  The NEW me?  Well, I give myself permission to mess up now and then.  I am NOT PERFECT.  So, for February, I will have some goals in mind, and some I'll probably do okay with.  Some, I hope, perfect at.  Others, well, knowing how I am & how I roll, I'll probably mess up.  It's OKAY. 

That's how I look on my bike :)

I am not perfect, nor do I pretend that I am.

This year, 2014, I promise to TRY, FAIL, SUCCEED, and be happy with it.

I'm BAAAAACK!!

I have been gone for quite a long time.  Life really happened to me the fast few months.  So many changes felt like they threw me a curve ball that I couldn't overcome.  That is not true, as I know that Heavenly Father only gives us challenges and ways to grow.
  My mom was put into hospice care at home this Autumn.  Sobering thoughts, and sadness crept over me.  I started over-eating to compensate for my sadness.  This has happened before.  I KNOW what it does to my body now, and for a few months I just didn't care.  As the scales creeped upward, I saw the inevitable start to happen, once more.  My knees hurt, my feet hurt. I felt winded on a short walk.  OH BOY.  Another wake-up call.  I know what it feels like to be HEALTHY, not SKINNY.  I wished for that to come back.  This has gone on for long enough.  I am BACK to my beloved nutrition the way it is SUPPOSED to be, not eating bags of licorice, diet cokes with coconut syrup and lime {dirty diet cokes as they're called in Utah} ~ for good reason, I might add.  Dirty little secret of sucking you in as you suck on your straw. 
So here it is, 2014.  I have made resolutions with short term goals ~ 30 days, if you will.  Today is day #2 of my first 30 days. I am doing great ~ and I'm ready to face the world head-on, HEALTHY, THINNER, and MOST of ALL, with LOVE and GRACE and DIGNITY.  I will be sharing with you about my mom from time to time.  I will be sharing the good days, the bad days, and the triumphs.  Not every day is a good day.  I think we all have a day where we are bummed, sad, tired or grumpy.  With that said, let's get on with the picture journal of days 1 & 2...

 Mom and Dad's first meal brought in by Meals on Wheels.  My siblings and I have been trying so hard to provide meals for them, but we feel like a daily warm meal would be so helpful.  I am truly grateful this program still exists.  It was warm, sweet and sour meatballs, a full meal of complimentary items, and delivered with a smile and a hug. 

 I have been working on giving up eating out's awfulness for new healthy options AGAIN.  Spinach, pear, gorgonzola, turkey bacon {just a little} made up this salad from Blue Lemon at City Creek.

 One of my resolutions for January is to spend time on foot ~ 10 miles worth.  I have a round ligament injury, BUT Shadow & I walked a mile today out to the Morgan County airport.  26 degrees, and we both enjoyed the walk.

 The Wasatch Back ~ or the back side of the Wasatch mountains near my home.  Cloudy today, and there were a few snowflakes falling on our walk.

 The size of my hips absolutely HAD to have been magnified by the water, right? It felt so good to get into the pool, and my daughter Heather was my swim buddy, and we swam an HOUR!  So PROUD.

 Bountiful Rec Center pool ~ beautiful.  Steam room afterwards makes me think a cleanse day spent here would be absolutely PERFECT.

 Day #1 healthy lunch ~ an Asian salad from Paradise Bakery. I skipped the edamame {I'm avoiding soy where I can}, and I skipped the noodles.  YUM!

Back to drinking purified water.  I filled up my water bottles from the church well in Centerville.  It's FREE, and there's no chlorine or flouride added.